If you were here, we'd start with a hug. Our first connection. The thing we built our friendship around. Like: Jisan & Andrew hug just a beat too long. Maybe I'm projecting onto our colleagues, because here, it's still a little transgressive for two men to touch. Easier to file those men or that action under gay.

I admit, it's still sometimes my knee-jerk reaction. I hope it will be different for my godson. I also admit—I'm desperate to be touched. I am not desperate for sex. I want to touch another human and have it mean nothing more than let's recharge our batteries or good morning!